Song Lyrics 6 'My Oxygen'

Just hold your gaze and don't look back. [It's almost over]
Reload the guns for this attack. [Just take this slower]
And take this chance like it's your last. [Your last chance]
The future will turn into the past.
Maybe we should re-start.
Maybe we should re-start.
Maybe we, should just, [Restart!]

I can't breathe, with you not next to me.
Just feed me Oxygen. Just be my Oxygen.
I can't see past your eyes. When I look I'm hypnotised
Please fuel my Heart and end this emptiness.

Retrace your steps and we'll begin. [This all again]
It's not outside so search within. [There lies an answer].
Start to move if you want to find the truth.
Options are there for you to choose.
It's like you're trapped in a booth.
Maybe I'm trapped in a booth.
Maybe we're, just trapped, in this -

I can't breathe, with you not next to me.
Just feed me Oxygen. Just be my Oxygen.
I can't see past your eyes. When I look I'm hypnotised.
Just fuel my heart and end this emptiness.
And end this emptiness.

You and me is all we need, just you and me.
You and me is all we need, just you.
Just you and me.

Song Lyrics 5 'It's Only Us'

I'm breathing just for you ...
And my heart, it speaks the truth ...
I won't be ruled by their terms (and conditions)
And I won't be the one to burn (You're my ambition).

So does it matter what they say? Does it matter what they think?
If we're to swim alone, then I'm certain we will sink.
I don't care if we are right, or if this turns out wrong.
I won't let this become my Solo song.

On this journey we will go ...
Off to somewhere we both know ...
Don't look back at what's behind (Just look forward).
To find a door you've got to close (One more).

So does it matter what they say? Does it matter what they think?
If we're to swin alone, then I'm certain we will sink.
I don't care if we are right, or if this turns out wrong.
I won't let this become my Solo song.

Song Lyrics 4 'I love you'

Darling, don't close your eyes tonight.
Just wait 'til the morning lights.
For this is the final day. Tomorrow, I go away.

Precious, please don't forget me.
If I were a ship then you'd be my Sea.
Don't leave me alone. You're honestly my home.

'I love you' - The three words that I've longed to hear.
'I love you' - I'll whisper into your ears.
Now I think you know, I will not let you go.
I need you, but where are you tonight?

Baby, bring joy into my life.
Feed this hunger and keep me alive.
Forever you'll be mine. I'll sing this the last time:

'I love you' - The three words that I've longed to hear.
'I love you' - I'll whisper into your ears.
Now I think you know, I will not let you go.
I need you, but you're not here tonight.

Let's go. Off to some place we both know.
Let go. I am sinking oh, so low.
Let's go. Off to some place we both know...

Song Lyrics 3 'Today is Tomorrows Yesterday'

Below are the lyrics for my original song, as named above:

You can take your time.
Sit back, enjoy the ride while you can.
Tell a final joke.
While you choke on your last cigar. It's never far.

Because Today is Tomorrow's Yesterday.
Because Today is Tomorrows'.

Cry your artificial tears.
The ending is so very near. Can't your hear? [It's getting closer]
In the flames we will arise.
Will we make it to the other side? I'm losing sight.

Because Today is Tomorrow's Yesterday.
Because Today is Tomorrow's Yesterday.
Because Today, is Tomorrows'.

Fate and Destiny fade away.
Fate and destiny fade, away.
Fade us away in the dark of the day. On our knees we will pray for your saving hands.

Because Today is Tomorrow's Yesterday.

Song Lyrics 2 'Love dies'

Below are the lyrics for another one of the songs I wrote:

Just let the bullets spread towards my heart that's breaking
To kill the agony and pain you are making me feel.
And my mind keeps telling me,
That I should let the waves wash away all these dreams
As I lie at the bottom of the Sea ...

This is our funeral, my love.
This is our funeral. My love is dead for you.
This is our funeral, my love.
This is our funeral. My love is dead for you now.

Where we once walked Heaven, we're racing through a Hell
None of this made a difference so I guess we might as well -
Surrender in this War.
I've forgotten what's worth fighting for.
And I'm going insane. And now we are not the same [The same]

This is our funeral, my love.
This is our funeral. My love is dead for you.
This is our funeral, my love.
This is our funeral. My love is dead for you now.

Scorched by the Sun.
I don't know where to Run.
I won't make it home.
And now we are both alone [And now we're both thrown].

This is our funeral, my love.
This is our funeral. My love is dead for you now.
And it's never coming BACK.

Song Lyrics 1 - 'Lies, Fake smiles and desperate denials.

Below are the lyrics for my original song (as named above) which I have now recorded an acoustic version of:

In this cacophony of crashing waves,
You will finally find you place
As the Sun sinks down into the Ocean.
With sunrise you will awake,
Only give as much as you can take
And watch the world with your eyes Open.

Why does a holiday have to end?
Why can't we just pretend this is all we've ever needed?

Well I can read your lies, fake smiles and desperate denials
And see your eyes try to hide what's on the Horizon.
Don't let this all wash over you. Let it all wash over -
You are the one that's left behind.
Silence - broken with a cry.
Was this ever gonna be enough? [Ever gonna be enough...]

Why does a holiday have to end?
Why can't we just pretend this is all we've ever needed?

Pack your bags say your goodbyes.
Like this season, our loves dies.
Will someone please stop my heart from bleeding?
(From bleeding - It bleeds for you).

Off I go for ten days.

Well hey there, to whoever you may be.

So, I'm assuming you are capable of reading titles so have already realised the subject of this blog. Just to be on the safe side, it is relating to my thoughts on buggering off for ten days for a Holiday to Morocco with my Father.

I'll be honest here and tell you when my Dad first suggested Morocco as a holiday, I said "Yeah! That's in Spain, right?" - No Stefan, No it is not.
So, in case you are stupid like me, Morocco is actually based in Africa.
I didn't think i'd like the idea of going to Africa to 'get away' from life for a bit, but I hear it's very nice.

The flight is Monday at one of those crazy times, like 3.30am. This means picking my Dad up (my parents are divorced) from where he works and driving to Luton, tomorrow, to stay at a hotel before the Airport. I don't have a clue what I'll do about sleep. You have to be at Airports three hours before your flight so they can check you're objective is not to blow everybody up. I might shave everything except my mustache, just to see how that goes down.

"Are you looking forward to it?" I hear you say via the realm of the internet.
"Yes and No" I reply to you.

First off, I'll tell you what I'm not looking forward to:

1. My iPod running out of battery by the time I get to Morocco, meaning the only music I get to listen to for 10 days is probably something from 'Slumdog Millionnaire' (which, by the way, is a shit film).
2. Having to share a bedroom with my Dad - He is a snorer.
3. Having no guitar or mic. As in point one, you can see music is something that I would find it hard to live without.
4. Missing my girlfriend and mum... And my Doggy. I know, I know - "Awww, Steffy can't go 10 days without his Mummy?" She's a good cook.
5. Airports and travel. I hate them both. When we get to the Aiport in Morocco, our Hotel is another hundred miles from where we'll be.
6. Having to come to an agreement with my Dad, Daily. My Dad can be great. But, he can also be a dick. My 20th birthday was nearly 4 months ago. He has not got me a present. Think Jim Carrey in Liar Liar - that's sort of my Dad. He likes to have his own way and sometimes acts like a snob (since meeting his new Wife several years ago) . I've not spent more than a few hours/a day with him for years, so this could go either way
7. Having no internet. I am, like most teens/young adults, quite obsessed and addicted to the time-wasting Facebook, and also YouTube. Maybe I can come back without needing to go online, but let's face it - I'll be straight on Facebook with the pictures.
8. I actually have no idea what Morocco is like. It's not supposed to be that hot. I wan't a Tan so bad. But this isn't really something I'm not looking forward to. It'll be interesting.

Now, onto the good stuff:

1. Not having to go to work. When you're at school, you don't realise how much time they give you off. It'll be great to not have to do my shitty little office job for a bit.
2. Sunshine. The weather this Summer has been as expected in England - Wank. It'll be good to not think 'I wonder if I can venture outside tomorrow'.
3. Reading some books in the Sun. I have a very large collection of books to get through, so I'll take a few to read while away. I love getting stuck into a good story. I also read quite a few self-improvement books. One book I take will be 'Feel the Fear and do it anyway' by Susan Jeffers. It's proving to be a good'un.
4. Having some time to chill out and THINK. Life is non-stop these days, and having some time to clear my mind will be great. I'll bring a notepad and pen so I can jot down some thoughts, and song lyrics for when I return.
5. Appreciating the life I have. Africa is obviously not known for it's wealth. Too many of us take what we have for granted. Seeing people over there will truly be a wake-up call. The credit-crunch is a bitch and the future is quite scary, but what's the worse case scenario? - I'll have a shitty flat, living off benefits. That's still pretty rich. (I know, this is getting a bit downbeat, isn't it?)
6. Swimming. I haven't been swimming in a long time. I didn't use to know the Sea is where all the pee 'lives', so I'll be holding my breath, but there are lots of cool things to try out - such as Windsurfing, which I don't exactly know the meaning of.
7. Getting to spend time with my Dad. Contrary to what I said in Point six of the negatives, it'll be great to actually be able to spend time with my Dad. Normally when I see him, he's always on the phone taking business calls, or we just go to the cinema (so don't really talk). I'll try to get some YouTube videos with him - Maybe a drinking competition? (I haven't drunk any alcohol since my bad experience I documented on Youtube about a month or so back)

I think this is probably long enough of a blog? I aim to keep these blogs up, and will most likely give you previews to my songs by posting lyrics of current works-in-progress.

For now, take care, and I'll catch you on the flipside.

- Stefan

Hey Stranger.

Hi.

I haven't made a blog entry since December last year, and that was a one off.
Maybe I'll use this again. We'll see. I like writing and stuff.

So, once again, like in my last blog post I'm going to make the prediction that you followed me from Youtube or Facebook. I seem to like sharing my life with people and have a kind-of attention craving personality. A couple of traits these famous people have - Just saying... I may be, one day.

Well then, let's chat life.
I've been working the same job for almost 2 years. That's quite a long time, considering I don't see it going anywhere. Main reason for that is - I really couldn't care less about the work I do. Office work - What kind of person is suited to that? Not me.
See what I'm good at, and what I know I'm good at, is music.

A bit of background on this. I only really took an interest to music towards the end of High School (Which in the United Kingdom, means I was about 14-16). I used to mess about on the keyboard at school pressing the random talk buttons i.e. "DJ! Yeah!! Ye-ahhh"
And then I started listening to a bit of Green Day and Blink 182 and my music taste developed from there. I bought a guitar roughly around the same time, thanks to 'School of Rock', which influenced me and still remains one of my favourite films out there today.

So, there I was (after some learning - self-taught), playing my electric guitar along to Blink 182 songs. It wasn't until recently - the last couple of years - that I started writing my own songs. I would definitely place myself as a singer/song-writer now. I bought a beautiful new (electric) guitar several months ago, and I barely touch it. I use my acoustic all the time. I've probably got worse at guitar (or stayed the same), but when it comes to writing lyrics I am, as some say, 'Sick'. I don't mean ill - I actually mean, "Yeah dude! That was Sick!!"
(I imagine explaining this to an elderly person is rather tricky)

So skip to now. I have at least 10 good, if not (and I'm not trying to sound like a cocky chap), great songs written down and saved in my laptop. Some are more complete than others. And by complete, I mean I have the guitars sync'd and such.
So - you ask (and yes I hear you!) - Why waste my talents? It'd be very easy to say because I don't think it's possible to 'make it big' and that I'm too old (20) to take risks and should be settling down in a job that will provide money for my would-be family. But I'll be honest - I am a nervous wreck... Well, sometimes.

Sure it takes guts to get on stage in front of a bunch of strangers and start singing, but it really makes me pee my pants. Though, not literally.
Someone I look up to is Kate McGill, a.k.a 'Katem3' on Youtube. I've watched her for the past, probably, two years and seen her develop into the person she now is. She always had the talent for music, but now she has the confidence too. I hope the same can develop in me, because when I sit and get into my music, I am so proud of it and just want to show it off. I'd love to have the guts to jump on X-factor. I'm not saying I'd win, but I think Simon would gleam his teeth at me, if Played him a bit of 'Lies, Fakes smiles & Desperate Denials' (one of my many songs).

So it all comes down to that. I just need to step outside of my comfort zone and then all should be groovy.

This is quite long already, so we'll leave it at that.
If you'd like you can follow me and we'll see where this goes.

Cheers,

Stefan.