Hey Stranger.

Hi.

I haven't made a blog entry since December last year, and that was a one off.
Maybe I'll use this again. We'll see. I like writing and stuff.

So, once again, like in my last blog post I'm going to make the prediction that you followed me from Youtube or Facebook. I seem to like sharing my life with people and have a kind-of attention craving personality. A couple of traits these famous people have - Just saying... I may be, one day.

Well then, let's chat life.
I've been working the same job for almost 2 years. That's quite a long time, considering I don't see it going anywhere. Main reason for that is - I really couldn't care less about the work I do. Office work - What kind of person is suited to that? Not me.
See what I'm good at, and what I know I'm good at, is music.

A bit of background on this. I only really took an interest to music towards the end of High School (Which in the United Kingdom, means I was about 14-16). I used to mess about on the keyboard at school pressing the random talk buttons i.e. "DJ! Yeah!! Ye-ahhh"
And then I started listening to a bit of Green Day and Blink 182 and my music taste developed from there. I bought a guitar roughly around the same time, thanks to 'School of Rock', which influenced me and still remains one of my favourite films out there today.

So, there I was (after some learning - self-taught), playing my electric guitar along to Blink 182 songs. It wasn't until recently - the last couple of years - that I started writing my own songs. I would definitely place myself as a singer/song-writer now. I bought a beautiful new (electric) guitar several months ago, and I barely touch it. I use my acoustic all the time. I've probably got worse at guitar (or stayed the same), but when it comes to writing lyrics I am, as some say, 'Sick'. I don't mean ill - I actually mean, "Yeah dude! That was Sick!!"
(I imagine explaining this to an elderly person is rather tricky)

So skip to now. I have at least 10 good, if not (and I'm not trying to sound like a cocky chap), great songs written down and saved in my laptop. Some are more complete than others. And by complete, I mean I have the guitars sync'd and such.
So - you ask (and yes I hear you!) - Why waste my talents? It'd be very easy to say because I don't think it's possible to 'make it big' and that I'm too old (20) to take risks and should be settling down in a job that will provide money for my would-be family. But I'll be honest - I am a nervous wreck... Well, sometimes.

Sure it takes guts to get on stage in front of a bunch of strangers and start singing, but it really makes me pee my pants. Though, not literally.
Someone I look up to is Kate McGill, a.k.a 'Katem3' on Youtube. I've watched her for the past, probably, two years and seen her develop into the person she now is. She always had the talent for music, but now she has the confidence too. I hope the same can develop in me, because when I sit and get into my music, I am so proud of it and just want to show it off. I'd love to have the guts to jump on X-factor. I'm not saying I'd win, but I think Simon would gleam his teeth at me, if Played him a bit of 'Lies, Fakes smiles & Desperate Denials' (one of my many songs).

So it all comes down to that. I just need to step outside of my comfort zone and then all should be groovy.

This is quite long already, so we'll leave it at that.
If you'd like you can follow me and we'll see where this goes.

Cheers,

Stefan.